reflections...

You could not have told me that moving back to New Orleans would have been a good idea.



It is still challenging though. Bill lets his company run him into the ground, they certainly don't pay him enough...but we at least get a two bedroom apartment for wicked cheap and we are not stuck in a lease. So there are some good points.



My job is going well. I've passed all my licensing tests and am officially a licensed Claims Adjuster in the state of Louisiana. My boss has assured me his job is to help me hit my goals which will help me get a raise. To be honest, I really hope he is right.



I never used to care about money. And part of me still doesn't, but it would be nice to have a little extra instead of needing to watch the budget every second. The good news about that is that in one year, my car will be paid off. In three years, we will be finished with child support for J and my credit cards should be paid off. Oh, and we'll have plenty of dough saved for a down payment.



I would love to buy a house now, but I just don't want to put us in a situation where we would be in a bind if one of us lost our job.



my ex and his wife are the types who spend money and buy bigger "stuff" because they feel that they "need" to. It's amusing and sick at the same time.



Today, it just all clicked. I love my husband, Bill and I adore my son, C. My stepdaughter J will probably never have the relationship with us that we so desire, but life is what it is. We may not be rich financially but we certainly don't need to act like we are. And, to anyone who feels like they need to "keep up", who are you keeping up with?