third day in a row...

Maybe this will actually become a habit again!

Just a lot on my mind today. There are some people I have met in recent years who don't seem to "get" the whole "life is short, love those around you" mentality. I. Don't. Get. It.

I remember Greg, my brother, and I used to fight all the time. He was always wrong in my eyes. He almost always forgot my birthday. We rarely spoke on the phone.

but...

I miss him so much it hurts.

It hurts that I have to sit by and watch someone I love be the one who never seems to do anything right because they didn't do something the way someone else thought the should have. I know, I am writing in code a little bit...just to protect the guilty.

A long time ago, well, not THAT long...I let myself get into a controlling relationship. I am watching someone I love go through this and unfortunately, I cannot get involved and it is killing me. I don't get how controlling someone can be. Well..wait, yes I can. With me and Greg, I was very much the organized, orderly one and because of that I have my own OCD, control-freak tendencies. But life has taught me to lighten up a bit because there are so many things in life that are just not worth getting keyed up over.

Also, being in a controlling relationship myself showed me that no one should ever let themselves be treated in a way that makes them feel like an inferior person. Unfortunately, in the case I saw today, the damage is permanent and irreparable. very.very.sad.

My wish for all siblings, husbands, wives, parents, friends, etc.....LIFE IS SHORT...GET OVER IT.

good night.